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after pmr my life changes drastically.
my best friends moved to sbp, technic.
im forever alone now in prefect's organization.
bangun pagi tiada semangat.
malasnya hendak ke sekolah.
kekadang flash back good old memories.
i don't think i can handle science courses.
sometimes, i regret transferring from hostel.
i can no longer learn quran sunnah, syariah and arabic.
but what can i do.
tak boleh belajar pun di hostel.
everyday is painful for me.
i miss my arwah sepupu :(
i feel so tired.
i want to be a good muslimah YA ALLAH.
i don't want to contact with any mahram,
but how can i do it without hurting their feelings?
i feel i can't score for spm next year.
mengapa mls hendak belajar wahai diri.
kamu bukannya tidak pandai.
DIA cipta aku sempurna!
YA ALLAH hati ini bukan senang utk di pujuk.
kalau berjaya pun utk sebentar shj,
kemudian ia akan kembali menangis pilu.

YA ALLAH, this is my journey.
YOU put me here.
So i just have to carry on and trust you :'(
Amin.